Am I Only Dreaming?

By Kirsty: A subject that seems to come up time and time again within my readings is Dreams. Dreams can be weird, wonderful, sinister or just a mirage of the status quo. We can wake up from a dream believing it to be the absolute truth, for the first few moments of our awakening. Only when we are fully awake and able to focus, are we able to rationalize and understand that in actual fact it was just a dream, or was it just a dream?

When we sleep, we are functioning within the subconscious mind. It is here that the Akashic records are stored. A bit like the library, where every event, feeling or emotion is collated. Not just from the present lifetime, but also every other life we have lived. So bearing this in mind, it is no wonder our dreams can seem very bizarre and bewildering to us.

1kirsty3 Sometimes it can be very easy to interpret a dream, as the meaning will be right there staring us in the face. Even if disguised with a bit of ridiculous randomness we are able to get the gist of the true nature of the beast. Other times we have to enlist the help of a professional to unscramble the conundrum.

I want to share with you a recurring dream that I had at the age of 23. I had been struggling with the death of my father, who sadly passed away in an accident when I was 17 years old. Being so young, I had no idea how to grieve for a parent, so I simply didn’t grieve. I just moved on with my life, feeling very aggrieved and angry. I had not spoken to my father for 12 months before he died. “how dare he go before I had told him what I thought of him”. This was my train of thought for nearly 6 years.

I used my anger to fuel my existence, until a point where I realized that I was actually just existing and not living my life. In and amongst all this, I would have this dream. It would start off very “normal” for example, I would be walking down a road. All of a sudden I would be aware of something very loud and moving very fast behind me. I turned to look over my shoulder, and much to my horror, there was a steam roller heading straight towards me.
I had to run as fast as I could, my heart would be pounding in my throat, fear ripping through my veins. It didn’t matter where I ran, this steamroller was coming for me, and crushing anything that got in its way. It was rolling over houses, buildings and people, just to get to me. And just as it reached me, I would stop breathing and then suddenly, I would wake up.

Always the same terrifying scenario over and over again. At this time in my life I had put all my spiritual work on a back burner, as I felt I needed to regain my mental stability before exploring further. What I was able to derive from this awful dream was that something big was coming after me, and no matter where I ran or where I hid, It would find me. I also knew that it was not going to be a positive experience.

Within a few weeks my mental health has deteriorated to the point that I had a nervous breakdown. At the time I did not realize what was happening to me, although I did know it was some kind of mental health issue.

This was the scariest place I had ever been in my life, I felt like I had been abducted by aliens and was living in some sort of parallel universe. Of course I knew I hadn’t, but that’s how it felt. Those of you who have had mental health issues (one in three of us) in the past will completely understand this analogy. The fear was the most parallelizing force I had ever endured. Very similar to the fear that gripped me in my dream.

Only afterwards, when I was more stable was I able to actually unite the two phenomena, my breakdown and my dream. It all became crystal clear. I had been heading for a breakdown for some time, and it was going to capture me no matter how much I tried to run away or hide from it, just like the steam roller. This revelation was an epicyclical moment in my life. The power of the subconscious mind is phenomenal.

Another interesting thing about what happens to us whilst we are sleeping is that, Angels and spirit guides communicate with us through dream-state. The reason for this is because whilst in this state we have no barriers or inhibitions. At this point we are completely open to all communications. So it is important that we pay attention to our dreams as very often there is a message there for us. If you have trouble remembering your dreams, I would advise you to keep a journal on the side of your bed. Upon awakening write down whatever you can remember, even if its just a tiny detail. After a few weeks of doing this, you will find that there is a pattern, or a common denominator within your dreams. Here you Will find the message that your angels and guides are gently trying to convey to you.

So next time you wake up from a very odd or nonsense dream, after you have revered from dream-state and thinking its all real. You may be tempted to just dismiss any idea that it couldn’t possibly be real or have any meaning. Ask yourself “what is going on in my life right now, are there issues that I am not addressing?”. Or have you been asking your angels or spirit guides for help and assistance? . Here in this myriad of madness could be the answer that you have so desperately been seeking!!


Love and Light,


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